das schlectes Wetter

I don't know what Germany's deal is, but the weather lately SUCKS! Zum Beispiel: it is currently 8 degrees Celsius (48 Fahrenheit) and it is, let me double check.... yeah, it's the second week of MAY! It no joke seems like late November around here. And the sun is rarely out. Booo. But other than the weather, life is good. I have fallen into my routine even more in the past several weeks and it makes the time seem to fly by much too quickly! However, I have been feeling this week, rather exhausted. I'm not really sure why, it's not as if I am not getting enough sleep or anything like that, but I have just been feeling mentally exhausted lately. Maybe this could be a result of the fact that my brain is desperately trying to be able to process/function in another language, and with it comes-at times what feels like-a never ending list of frustrations. It's strange because I truly feel as if my German has become SOOO much better, but when I go to speak it with someone, I tend to become overwhelmed with a mixture of embarrassment and doubt, and I feel as if I am always messing up. But when I want to write something, it flows naturally, and more often than not, it is a completely correct, well-written sentence. Odd. But at least that lets me know that the knowledge is there, which is nice to know. Now it's just a matter of getting my mind and mouth to work together. ;)

I watched the last 2 episodes of the series Sex and the City last night (in which Carrie moves to Paris to be with 'the Russian' and of course (!!!SPOILER ALERT!!! haha) ends the relationship to move back to NYC to finally and officially be with Big and return to her friends that know and love her). I couldn't help but completely identify with a lot that Carrie's character was going through. While her Russian artist boyfriend is constantly working, she is left to try to live her life in a new city where a different language is spoken. She is seen roaming the streets alone almost completely in both episodes. I can't even begin to tell you how much this is me. I spend a lot of time alone here. And by a lot, I mean almost all. I don't really understand why I haven't made many friends here yet. I mean, I've lived here for going on 7 months (wow) and I still don't really have any friends. It's really depressing to think about it actually. I would honestly kill to have Emily, or Jill, or Jas or anyone here for just a weekend! But maybe this is just one of my homesickness waves talking. Or maybe my hormones are out of control or something (no, mom, I'm not pregnant). I refuse to lie to you, my loyal readers (and by readers I mean reader, shout out to Granny!), when I was sitting outside of a cafe this past Saturday (alone of course) I heard local street performers playing the Maroon 5 song "Sunday Morning" and I seriously had to fight back tears. It was just so beautiful! That's embarrassing to reveal, but its the truth, and I don't know what was going on with me there, but I just thought it was so lovely. Silly, I know.

But luckily tomorrow is Friday, which means the weekend. I have been in contact with this guy from Toytown who (FINALLY!) actually lives in Bonn. So we are going to meet up for a drink or two tomorrow in town. I'm excited to have a reason to get dressed up and go out. But, uughh it's another guy. Of course. Is there really no females my age living in Bonn?? Apparently not.. sigh. I spoke with Naemi the other night and she might be in Cologne this weekend also, which would be AWESOME! I want to see her! It feels like forever since I saw her last. But, ahh! It's dinner time now, so I am going to go. Sorry to end so abruptly. I'll post again soon!
Oh and this is the best picture I have taken of Emilian yet! I made it into a card for Lisa's first Mother's Day :) So cute. I still can't even believe how big he is getting and how fast he is learning things. Such a Cutie Bear.. if this picture doesn't make your heart melt, than you are insane. Back again soon. Miss and Love you all back home more than you know! xoxoxox Megs