Re-Entry Shock: It's Real.

Although I still need to finish about 28294032027 entries, and I apologize for my laziness, I still wanted to come and write really quickly about what its like to be home. Besides trying to find a job and the everyday grind aspects, life being back is strange to say the least. In a way, it's as if I just came home and immediately fell into exactly where I left off, which is good and bad at the same time. I have been home in Ohio for just a little over 2 weeks at this point, and it already feels like it has been months since I last walked the streets of Bonn. And I hate that. I hate how my time there already seems so far away, and dreamlike in many ways. I often find myself reminding myself of the little things, like waiting at the Hbf, or sitting on the ubahn going over the Rhein, just to remember that it was all real. My life here and my life there could not be more different. If the opportunity presented itself where I could find a job and actually support myself there, I would return in a heartbeat. But the reality is, I need an income, so having to get a job here is my only option. I miss speaking and hearing German. Much more than I ever would have imagined. I recently have gone to the nearby library (something that we get better here in the US than over there), and rented 3 German films to watch without subtitles. I also have decided I officially need to finish the first Harry Potter in German that I started months ago in Bonn. I miss Kai and Lisa and Johanna and of course Emilian so much, and think of them daily. I miss Bertus more than I think even I like to admit to myself, but I just remind myself that I will return. Becoming re-adjusted to my old life here is harder than I ever thought possible. It comes down to living here with part of my heart missing and resting on the banks of the Rhein.