In the past week or so, I've found myself in the midst of numerous waves of homesickness. They don't last more than an hour usually, but when they hit, they hit hard. I usually find that it is when I have grown frustrated with myself at trying to become a better speaker of the German language, which let it be noted, seems impossible most of the time. It's when I feel surrounded by letters or words or people that seem (and are) so foreign to me. Although I truly love it here, and I cannot even begin to describe in words how incredibly fortunate I have been with being placed with such an amazing family, I can't help but become sad sometimes from missing the little things, like the smell of my house, waking up to the feel of Loki's fur under my hand, the way it feels to drive my car with the sunroof open singing along to my favorite songs when I know no one can hear me or just silly texts from friends that make me laugh out loud. I miss sitting on the kitchen counter, the same way I have since I was little, and talking to my mom and Emily, and anyone else who may have come to visit 8829 that day/night. I miss playing Wii with my Granny, and having her crack me up with pretty much every single line that comes out of her mouth. She is hands down the funniest lady I know (with a close second being my mom). I miss having my friends, my amazing friends, who can make me lose my breath from laughing so hard. I miss having such close friends period. And mostly I just miss the feeling that one has when they know they are constantly surrounded by those that love them. If you haven't guessed it by now, I am currently in the eye of my most recent homesick storm. It sucks. Big time. I guess when it comes down to it, no matter how much I love it here--which I honestly do--it would be difficult for anyone to live when half of their heart is on the other side of the Atlantic.. but luckily, I at least have my Ozzie Pillow here with me. Without it, I would be a goner for sure. So.. I miss and love you all terribly, especially right now, and I think of you all daily! I hope all is well with everyone and I will post again soon! And I promise the next one won't be such a downer.. I just feel there's something therapeutic from writing while I long for the things from my past. Goodnight from Germany. xoxo Megan
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Life With Half a Heart..
In the past week or so, I've found myself in the midst of numerous waves of homesickness. They don't last more than an hour usually, but when they hit, they hit hard. I usually find that it is when I have grown frustrated with myself at trying to become a better speaker of the German language, which let it be noted, seems impossible most of the time. It's when I feel surrounded by letters or words or people that seem (and are) so foreign to me. Although I truly love it here, and I cannot even begin to describe in words how incredibly fortunate I have been with being placed with such an amazing family, I can't help but become sad sometimes from missing the little things, like the smell of my house, waking up to the feel of Loki's fur under my hand, the way it feels to drive my car with the sunroof open singing along to my favorite songs when I know no one can hear me or just silly texts from friends that make me laugh out loud. I miss sitting on the kitchen counter, the same way I have since I was little, and talking to my mom and Emily, and anyone else who may have come to visit 8829 that day/night. I miss playing Wii with my Granny, and having her crack me up with pretty much every single line that comes out of her mouth. She is hands down the funniest lady I know (with a close second being my mom). I miss having my friends, my amazing friends, who can make me lose my breath from laughing so hard. I miss having such close friends period. And mostly I just miss the feeling that one has when they know they are constantly surrounded by those that love them. If you haven't guessed it by now, I am currently in the eye of my most recent homesick storm. It sucks. Big time. I guess when it comes down to it, no matter how much I love it here--which I honestly do--it would be difficult for anyone to live when half of their heart is on the other side of the Atlantic.. but luckily, I at least have my Ozzie Pillow here with me. Without it, I would be a goner for sure. So.. I miss and love you all terribly, especially right now, and I think of you all daily! I hope all is well with everyone and I will post again soon! And I promise the next one won't be such a downer.. I just feel there's something therapeutic from writing while I long for the things from my past. Goodnight from Germany. xoxo Megan
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MEGGLLLETTTT I LOVE YOU! Just think about how cute that little crumb is and pretend it's loki!! That's my advice to you. In the meantime you have True Blood awaiting for your arrival back to the states...Also I'm so proud of you going over there for a whole year all by yourself! That's a big leap into the unkown. You're doing so great! x x x x o o o
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